I am moody...bitchy...rude...hard to get along with and annoying. I blow things out of proportion and let the littlest of things ruin my day. I make a fool of myself often. I play the victim. I make my problems seem like I am the only person in the world they are happening to. I complain and whine. I am needlessly cold to strangers and acquaintances alike. I convince myself that all people are awful...they are the problem...not me. I am stubborn and very opinionated. I form condescending thoughts instantly upon meeting someone or laying eyes on something I don't approve of. I think the very worst of people who have given me no reason to.
I can be a truly horrible person on a regular basis all because I let the smallest of things bother me so much. I let things build up in my mind so much that I become a crazy angry ball of rage. I really do not like this part of me. I wish I felt I had more control over it but it feels so out of control all the time!
I have done a lot of thinking about methods to fix this growing problem and have thought of a few things that may help. I am excited to give them a shot!
1. I am going to wake up early enough to have breakfast and to take my time getting ready in the morning before work.
This should give me a chance to wake up before heading to work and hopefully give me a positive start to my day.
2. I am going to start doing things that I love to do. I love going to get my nails done. And I love going to places and just people watching. And I love reading all kinds of books. These are some things that I have lost sight of and things that I would really love to get back to.
3. I am going to start taking yoga classes. Hopefully meditation and stress release will bring my mind peace and give me a fresh new outlook on life.
With a new year almost upon me, I think it is time to make these changes in my life. I am working on a New Years resolution list that will include some other important changes but this topic is the biggest in my life so far.
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