Bye bye 2013...hello 2014

2013 has been a great year! A LOT has happened in just 12 short months. I've traveled to Santa Cruz, San Francisco, Santa Barbara, Long Beach, and Nebraska. I've celebrated my 21st birthday, my two year anniversary, the birth of my adorable nephew, and my wedding. I've laughed and cried and been angry so many times. I started college for the second time. I bought a new car.  I made some pretty amazing friends. I've grown closer to friends I've already had. I have made life changing decisions and life changing mistakes. I've been right and been wrong. I've struggled and excelled.  

I have done many things this year but in 2014 I want to do more. This does not mean that I am going to work myself to the bone but instead, that I want to better myself. I want to become more peaceful. I want to learn to be satisfied. I want to learn the true nature of patience. I want to meet more people and learn their stories. I want to develop more bonds and put myself out there more. 

I have a feeling that 2014 is going to be awesome. And something that I'm learning is that your attitude impacts your reality. So, I'm sure this year will a great. 

The "Small Stuff"

I am beginning to learn some tough lessons but ones that I think are truly necessary for growth and positive change in my life. 

I am moody...bitchy...rude...hard to get along with and annoying. I blow things out of proportion and let the littlest of things ruin my day. I make a fool of myself often. I play the victim. I make my problems seem like I am the only person in the world they are happening to. I complain and whine. I am needlessly cold to strangers and acquaintances alike. I convince myself that all people are awful...they are the problem...not me. I am stubborn and very opinionated. I form condescending thoughts instantly upon meeting someone or laying eyes on something I don't approve of. I think the very worst of people who have given me no reason to. 

I can be a truly horrible person on a regular basis all because I let the smallest of things bother me so much. I let things build up in my mind so much that I become a crazy angry ball of rage. I really do not like this part of me. I wish I felt I had more control over it but it feels so out of control all the time! 

I have done a lot of thinking about methods to fix this growing problem and have thought of a few things that may help. I am excited to give them a shot! 

1. I am going to wake up early enough to have breakfast and to take my time getting ready in the morning before work. 

This should give me a chance to wake up before heading to work and hopefully give me a positive start to my day. 

2. I am going to start doing things that I love to do. I love going to get my nails done. And I love going to places and just people watching. And I love reading all kinds of books. These are some things that I have lost sight of and things that I would really love to get back to. 

3. I am going to start taking yoga classes. Hopefully meditation and stress release will bring my mind peace and give me a fresh new outlook on life. 

With a new year almost upon me, I think it is time to make these changes in my life. I am working on a New Years resolution list that will include some other important changes but this topic is the biggest in my life so far.