Monday, December 31, 2012

The Last Day of 2012

It is 8:53 PM on the last day of 2012 and as expected, I cannot keep my thoughts from traveling backwards into the past year of my life.  More has happened to me in this past year than in any other year of my life and I am starting to see that every year from now on is just going to get more and more interesting.



I have faced the deepest sorrows and the sweetest joys in 2012!  I have stretched and grown more than I ever have.  I have gained a level of confidence in myself that can only come from the wear and tear of life.  I have learned that when faced with the seemingly impossible, my mind and body will find the sliver of hope to help me persevere.  I have learned to trust my instinct and now know the smell of something fishy.  I am a year older and a year wiser.  And I have a promising year ahead of me to grow even more.



If I could choose one thing to carry with me into 2013, it would be that life goes on.  Even the worst of days are only just a day.  The sun will set with a promise of another chance and then rise again with the hope of a new day.  


I have come to understand that I have a lot of issues with life that I need to learn to let go.  I have a lot of built up anger for the things that have happened to me and I have a lot of frustration with the things that I cannot control.  I will do my best to fix the issues this year that I can and let go of the ones that I cannot.  


I will learn to laugh more; to find the funny in the crazy.  I will learn to remember the good times and draw on them to get me through the storms that will surely come.  


I will learn to find light in the dark.  I will learn to seek out happiness and to also bring happiness wherever I go.  I will try to be kind "for everyone is fighting a hard battle."


I will let go of the ones that I have lost.  I will form new relationships with good people who build me up rather than tear me down.  I will venture to not only have friends, but to be a friend.  


Lastly, I will make the most of the next 365 days and beyond given to me.  I will treat each day like a gift.  I will treat each moment as precious.  I will do my best to remember what is important in life and try not to let my wishful thinking take me far from those important things.  


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